Is nice and all that you care but this is my life and my decision and I really feel like I should not be dancing.
thanks for the advice but I’m going to take a break and do what is best for me— not you.
Is nice and all that you care but this is my life and my decision and I really feel like I should not be dancing.
thanks for the advice but I’m going to take a break and do what is best for me— not you.
You’re all being so nice and so understanding with how I feel right now.
All my friends are supporting me but my parents are quite upset that I’m not continuing to dance. They’re the ones I want to make happy too so it’s been a really hard decision.
I guess Irish dance has literally defined me for 13 years and now it won’t. It’ll always be a part of me and who know, maybe I’ll dance again someday.
Right now I definitely need a break and some time to find myself.
Anyways, thank you all for being so nice and supportive. It may seem like only 4 sentences to you, but me, this is making a huge difference and is helping me greatly.
Xoxoxo
Well I actually haven’t been dancing since early December and it hasn’t bothered me at all. I think that was one of the main indications that something was wrong. Every other time I had a break from dancing, it was all I could think about. Starting class up again would be the moment I was waiting for.
Dancing just started to bring me a lot of sadness and I feel that I should eliminate the sadness from my life. Right now, that means taking a break from dancing and just seeing what is going to happen.
Badly.
I’m so scared.
If any experienced champ dancers would like to message me some words of wisdom, it would mean the world to me.
Xoxoxo
So I haven’t posted anything in weeks and maybe even months. I would like to apologize for that but I think it’s been really good for me. I’ve been thinking a lot and a lot has changed since August.
In August, dance was the only thing that I could think about or dream about. Gosh, it literally was my life. That was how I wanted it. I honestly believe that moving into champs wouldn’t be that hard and that I had loads of time before oireachtas.
After dance camp, I couldn’t even do one of my slip jig or treble jig steps to music not to mention that I didn’t know my set either. It was just so hard for me. The steps were insane to learn and I didn’t really know anybody in the class. So every class, I would struggle, I felt like I wasn’t getting better. Being the worst in the class isn’t fun.
Also since then, my classes have gotten harder in school and I hang out with friends a lot more. I don’t really have time for dancing outside of dance class. My dance classes went from 2 1.5 hour classes to 3 2.5 hour classes a week, plus a private lesson and maybe an extra oireachtas prep class.
What I’m trying to say is that it’s just A LOT to deal with for me right now.
Dance isn’t the only thing in life that matters anymore. I’m not saying that its out of my life because I’m starting to really enjoy it again but I had a major reality check this year.
I want you all to know that I’m still alive and well and dancing but there has been a lot going on for me and that’s why I haven’t really had time to post much.
If you would like to follow my other blog: travelingthroughmymind.tumblr.com I update it almost everyday and it reads pretty true to how I actually feel.
Xo
Well, quite honestly, I’m NOT the reason that they aren’t going to nationals.
They can qualify at oireachtas or beating me is an option. I’m honestly not that good……..
At my last Feis, I did tie fort first so the other girl gets to move up too.
I know a LOT of the Midwest dance schools have this rule. They like to keep their dancers in for a full feis year before moving them up to make sure that they’re ready.
Once I move into OC, it’s like starting over. I NEVER expect to place in OC…it may sound sad but it’s the truth.
While it may be annoying, it happens in every level.
I can see how you wouldn’t like to though. I do feel sorta bad.
Xx
Well I just like YOU so……